Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Again
Another guy wanting to be friends... Can tell me why got so boh liao people around huh... If you boh liao can go
here see his profile lar... Anyway i didn't reply the previous guy...
After a long drought of not seeing AC in school... i saw him on Monday. i went to the Hon Sui Sen library to photocopy transparencies. Then i was walking down the flight of stairs to the ragsite cos my dad was waiting at the carpark there. And there he was, walking up the stairs... Wearing a baseball cap, T-shirt and berms... Becos i was quite in a fluster, he turned to look at me but i pretended i didn't see him and continued walking quickly down the stairs...Abit regret now... haha... Anyway it's a miracle to see him in school and i have a feeling he came to study... Hmm...
Land Ahoy! @ 8:14 AM
Bigger Than My Body
John Mayer
This is a call to the colourblind
This is an IOU
Stranded behind a horizon line
Try to be something true
Yes i'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
i'm surrounded by
All this pavement
Guess i'll circle
While i'm waiting
For my fuse to dry
Someday i'll fly
Someday i'll soar
Someday i'll be
So damn much more
Cos i'm bigger than my body
Gives me credit for
Why is it not the time
What is there more to learn
i've shed this skin i've been tripping in
And i've never quite returned
Cos i'm bigger than my body now
Maybe i'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second's time
But i'll gladly go down in a flame
If the flame's what it takes to remember my name
To remember my name yea
Cos i'm bigger than my body
Bigger than my body
Bigger than my body now
Know about this singer at last year's Grammys. Didn't like his "Your body is a wonderland" back then...Tried to download his new album but sources were limited and those on kazaa are super low quality. Only managed to find this song which i kinda like.
Land Ahoy! @ 6:12 AM
To reply or not to reply
Couple of moments ago, i saw the notice of 1 new message in my friendster. i opened it, thinking it might be some long lost friend, and guess what? What i saw was an unfamiliar face with the following message :
"helo...
how r u...just wondering if we can be friends here..
hope to receive your reply soon..
enjoy your weekend"
Firstly, i don't know this guy and he types "how r u"? Duh... Secondly, i'm amazed at myself...Haha...First time got stranger like that ask to make friends...Though ICQ also got once, but i ignored him... For those who got friendster and is kpo, click
here. Those who don't have leh...Let me describe. His name(most probably is nick lar) is Friday, which i personally think is queer. Then he's 29 or so his profile says. He's definitely not good looking, otherwise i would have replied liao lar... Haha... Should i list out his interests as well? Hmm...forget it. So i'm thinking whether i should reply him...Advice?
Land Ahoy! @ 8:21 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2003
peer-to-peer rules
After completing my Computing project on P2P at 4am on Weds morning, today i decided to open up my dearest Kazaalite, which has laid dormant for the past month. All becos i wanted to watch Sex and the City... but i guess i won't be using it often cos i don't trust the firewall implemented in Kazaa that apparently blocks out the IP of RIAA... Will only use it to download SATC... and maybe other movies... hmm...
Land Ahoy! @ 11:13 AM
Sigh
Don't really know what to blog nowadays... It's just project discussion, tutorials, lectures and home. Ok, there is something to talk about but i don't think this is the right place to say it or maybe the time is not right or maybe... i don't know also...sigh... Nothing seems to interest me nowadays... As in certain events that used to get me excited now have little effect. Ok, i can see you people going "huh?" when you're reading this... Heck, shall say everything out then. i just can't tell stuff to only 1 person...
Similar to another friend who forgot how to play the dating game, i feel that i'm giving up every chance that tries to come along even before i attempt to consider it. i wonder if it's the 20 years of singlehood that's deeply ingrained in my mind such that i refuse to accept changes that might change the present situation for the worst. i find it hard to think of incorporating another person into my life, especially when it comes to living my life the way i want, i'm a very stubborn mule. i can imagine myself not contributing to any relationship, i pick on people's faults, i'm a damn passive person, i'm not really worth people's time and effort. As i have always said, only my family members can stand me. And most importantly, i do not feel that i need a relationship. i don't know, many got hitched recently and found another type of happiness. The problem is, i don't see myself being worse off. Ok, i'm losing track of what i am saying liao.
So basically there's this someone who is trying to get close but i back off almost immediately. i didn't even think of considering. i just kept backing off and rejecting. The reason why i only chose to share the details with 1 friend is because i know i will get the same response from the others. "If you don't try, how will you know?" Maybe he's not the one. Maybe he is, but nothing is telling me to go for it. i seriously began to wonder if there's such a thing as Mr. Right. Two chances have passed, will this be the one or will it be the next?
Land Ahoy! @ 9:13 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
The Way
Clay Aiken
There's something about the way you look tonight
There's something about the way that i can't take my eyes off you
There's something about the way your lips invite
Maybe it's the way that i get nervous when you're around
And i want you to be mine
And if you need a reason why
It's in the way that you moved me
And the way that you teased me
The way that i want you tonight
It's in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When i can't find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
There's something about how you steal my mind
There's something about the way that i whisper your name when i'm asleep
Oh girl maybe it's the look in your eyes
Oh baby it's the way that makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they may change
But what i'm feeling stays the same
i can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby
So don't ask me to describe
i get all jutted up inside just thinking about the way
There's something about the way you look tonight
There's nothing more to say that
i feel it in the way
A song from his newest album "Measure Of A Man". Quite a disappointing album i must say. Maybe becos his voice is not suitable for recording. He must sing live then you feel the goosebumps all over you. Or maybe the style of the songs choosen didn't suit him. Afterall he has a more Broadway kind of voice...
Land Ahoy! @ 9:22 AM
Friendster
Obviously many of you are in this latest craze, those who aren't, join. For the fun of it. Friendster has offered nothing but surprises and more surprises... Like how A can know B and how B can know C and how C can know A, etc. It makes me look anti-social...with my teeny weeny little circle of friends...Haha...Second surprise is of course seeing how your primary school/secondary school friends can change so much within a few years. Best examples are like Chelsia, Winnie Ong, Jiaxiu, Mei Yin and loads... Every reaction is like "oh my god, is that her?" But I'm hoping to find those long lost primary school friends... Really want to know how they looked like now.
Land Ahoy! @ 12:10 AM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
sotong
Actually wanted to wait until end of this week then blog to see what a complete idiot and sotong i have been this week but i guess if i let my sotong acts accumulate until end of week, i may not be able to recollect all...Haha... Anyway if you're lost, what i'm trying to say is, since yesterday, my brains has migrated to don't know where and hence contributed to my actS of blurness...
Starting with yesterday. Me and two friends, LL and XL went for lunch. Sat down, i began to search for my wallet. Couldn't find it in my bag. Panicked. Took out everything from my bag, still cannot find. Friends tried hard to console me and i tried hard to recall where i might have dropped it. Five minutes passed. i was still moaning cos i had 90 plus bucks in there and friends were at a loss. i noticed Char coming, i called her and moaned. She understood my plight cos she lost her wallet before. And gave a nice consolation by saying that if i had so much money inside, i will never be able to find it. Moaning continues. Just then, LL noticed 2 wallets on the table and asked Char, "Are these yours?" "Eh, is this yours Jinyi?" Then i saw my wallet on the table. Apparently Char noticed a wallet on the floor, picked it up, put on the table and continued talking to us cos she thought it was hers. Four of us burst out laughing... It was such a complete joke i tell you. Luckily AC wasn't sitting nearby or something (though someone else was), such a disgrace...Hoho...
Ok, today. After my 9am class at Science, a classmate, RY, offered me and LL a ride to Bizad cos he drove today. i sat at the back while LL is in front. On the way, me and LL discussed about the tutorial presentation we had to do later and i realised i did the wrong questions. We were supposed to do NP 9.3 and NP 9.7, i did NE 9.3 and NE 9.7. See how idiotic i am? Never mind, then we reached Bizad. Walk a while, i said "Erm, i think i left my sweater in your car leh." So walked back with RY to get my sweater. He was impressed at the fact how i could miss my sweater which was beside me during the journey. So ok. We ascend a flight of stairs, saw friends, talked abit. Continued walking. Then LL say "Eh. Him leh." i was totally blur and gave the HUH look. She say "Aiyo, behind you." i turned around and saw AC... with his friend. Right... To think i could miss 2 big guys walking down the stairs. It's not that i don't recognise him, i didn't even notice there were 2 guys walking down the stairs lor. Even RY saw them lor. Great. What more can i say. Then just now on the way home, went to petrol station to buy bread and milk. And i actually got off my dad's car with FIVE cents and the caltex points card to buy $3.75 worth of stuff. And i only realised when the cashier was putting the stuff in the plastic bags. i asked her to wait a while, run to my dad's car in my Island Shop long dress which is already bloody difficult to walk in, let alone run, get money and ran back.
Don't know what i can still expect for tomorrow onwards man.
Land Ahoy! @ 1:42 AM
